Piece of my Heart – #griefheart number 21

Piece of my heart
Piece of my heart

I had my Richmond, VA cousins over and made this cake. It was a nice evening. My cousin Mel just lost her Dad and instead of taking her food, we had everyone over. A piece of my heart will always be missing especially at family get togethers. Charles loved family more than anything. He talked

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Love, by Chaney’s Hands – #griefheart number 20

Love by Chaney's Hands
Love by Chaney’s Hands

Chaney is my #griefheart today. It’s not just “my” journey, this is a journey for millions of people suffering a suicide loss. And today, this heart is in honor of Chaney Corley who was only 13 when she died by suicide in September of 2015.

I met Tony and Angel Blackmon online

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Sometimes in My Dreams Cal’s Song, Part 2

by Charles Aubrey Rogers

This is real shit, not crap rap, The park I used to trap at is next to the tunnel where Cal took his last nap. Just a coupla weeks away from graduation, He was supposed to have that gown and tassled cap hat. Cosby was where he was supposed to grad at,<br

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All Heart – #griefheart number 19

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All Heart

Charles was all heart and This is part of a card sent to Charles by his beloved theatre group in his sophomore year (I think) in high school and Mrs. Fretwell, his favorite teacher ever. Charles had cracked his skull, supposedly on a skateboard accident. But later we found out he’d cracked

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Trail Heart – #griefheart number 17

Trail Heart
Trail Heart

This was the heart that presented itself on our way back from our grief walk on Charles’ birthday. Even after a death, life keeps happening, new life keeps emerging. Important reminder that we still need to live. I never had to think about that before

What is the #griefheart project?

I explain my #griefheart project here.

See

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Addiction: The broken reward system

I went to the COBE event at VCU, Virginia Commonwealth University and saw Dr. Kevin McCauley speak (the dude seriously needs a decent online bio).

For many years, Charles and I had a discussion about his “thrill seeking” which I never felt was quite the right phrase since he wasn’t

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Happy Birthday Heart – #griefheart number 16

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Happy birthday heart

Happy birthday my love. You would have been 21 today, April 26, 2016. I will carry you in my heart forever.

What is the #griefheart project?

I explain my #griefheart project here.

See all #griefhearts so far on pinterest or on this blog by #griefheart category.

Redefining the meaning of ‘the first birthday’

This is not my son’s first birthday. It’s the first birthday since he died. He would have been 21.

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Charles’ 20th birthday

Years ago, I dreamed we would be in a better place with Charles–with his depression and addiction. His sleep disorder, his anxiety, his ADHD. We worked so hard at it.

Instead we are

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